inspirations (:

wow. i don't even know where to start! I've been so inspired tonight by some of my friends and I've sorta mapped out my life. i know exactly what i want to do and exactly how I'm going to make it happen, its gonna be hard, but these dreams of mine are so much bigger than that! and this struggle will be well worth it in the end. i feel like i could change lives, not in a huge way, but i could make a difference and it could lead to big things (: this, of course, will be done through music :D music is truly my passion, there is no other way of saying it. its the only thing i feel so strongly about, well, other than God. (: hes kinda important :p but tonight i realized something that was kind of a slap in the face! i know absolutely nothing about music. of course i know somethings, but only what I've been able to teach myself based on my love for it.. which isn't much. but i was talking to some of my friends that have gone to music college and it really inspired me to be all that i can be, it made me think to myself about all of the possibilities there are and the only thing holding me back is myself! i can be anything or do anything as long as I'm truly passionate about it and i put my whole heart into it! so this is my vow, mostly to myself, but i will do whatever it takes to make these big dreams of mine come true (: no matter how hard it is or how badly i want to give up, it will all be worth it and if i push myself and with the help of God, anything is possible (:

uhh.. catching up? (:

well, i really have no idea what i even want to say! but its been almost two years since i blogged so theres alot for me to catch up on :p it kinda feels weird blogging, its like a diary.. but on the internet.. and EVERYONE can read it! yea.. just thought id get that out there :p so life is good... i want to get out of this town though!! im so sick of it here!! i want to move somewhere and do something that is music based :D (im the ultimate music fanatic) but i want to stay in price long enough to get like a nursing degree or something so im not broke as balls wherever i decide to go (: its kind of hard to think because my dog is snoring incredibly loud in my ear.. but i love him to death anyways :D sometimes i feel like theres too many dreams inside my head, they make my head feel cramped... i wrote a song the other day in geology.. it needs me to actually write the guitar line thats in my head (: but it should be fun (: it was inspired by something thats not so inspiring to me anymore though, so i should probly rewrite the chorus a little.. im not entirely sure who all is going to end up reading this so ill leave out details :p haha!

world of warcraft is amazing (: if you dont play, you need to. if you do play and quit, you should unquit. if you havent played and mock us nerds, i dont even know what to say to you.. other than you fail and my mage would OWN YOURRR FACCEEE!!!!! hehe (:

hmm.. some more important matters..

I EFFIN MISS MY BEST FRIEND!!!!

shes pretty much the greatest person on this entire planet.

smiles seem to come easier when shes around, she always understands exactly what im going through because shes usually going through the same thing, its crazy! ill call her and be like dude, my life sucks. and she'll be like dude i was just gonna call you and say the exact same thing!! and we talk about it for like two seconds and then were laughing and joking because neither of us are capable of being mad/sad for very long (: but shes just awesome. you need to be jealous of her coolness. (she defines the word radd)

hmm.. (yes, that little rampage was inspired by a blog she wrote about me :D haha!)

this summer was supposed to be awesome but its looking like its going to be super! duper! lame.

im going to learn the guitar this summer though :D its my goal in life :D and possibly the piano, but i dont know, it depends on how long it takes me to learn the guitar (:

await the day played their first show today since the accident! :D im soo glad trey is out of the hospital and walking and drumming as amazingly as ever :D hes a pretty radd dude (:

on the topic of music, im to scream it like you mean it AND scream the prayer this summer!!! im sooo incredibly stoked!! :D its gonna be soo bomb :D

and i get to go with brooke because shes going to come see me!! woo!! partttyyyyyy!!!!! ahaha (:

and, once again on the topic of music, ive been on a mad downloading rampage!!! so if you have some incredibly radd tunes you'd like me to hear, please, share the love (:

well, i think thats all.. goodnight (:

jan/5/09

today was so much fun! i finally got back into the swing of school and everything after that massive amazing Christmas break that i will miss so much!
i found out i don't have a 9th period, so I'm getting a PE credit for going home early, I'm pretty stoked (:
there was an assembly in math, we learned about Internet safety and they said when you get home to google your name and see what comes up. mine came up as a black musician dude from like the forties. i want a new name. :p
so thirty seconds to mars has a new video out, its called kings and queens you need to listen to it (: not to mention Jared Leto is insanely good looking (:
i saw this really hot kid walking down the hall the other day, i had never seen him before and I've never seen him again, he was hot though (:
i just got a new computer for Christmas the other day, it doesn't have world of warcraft on it, I'm very sad about this.
i think i need to blog more, hopefully that will make me twitter less :p
i think I'm out of things to say.. (: